Thursday, September 13, 2012

Lover Awakened Honoring Week ~ Bella and her point of view



Well let me preface this and say life is not always easy, but when you trudge through the mud and never give up I believe you are rewarded.  Yes rewarded, I was rewarded with Zsadist.

Life before Z, frowning a little thinking about being shunned by the glymera, then smiling thinking about living on my own in my farmhouse next to Mary finally being able to leave the house where I grew up.  Life before Z was empty I was shunned from the glymera, and when that occurred you realize very quickly who your friends are and who is only pretending to be your friend.  Needless to say I did not have any real friends after the glymera incident.  Then Mary came along she was the best neighbor ever and a friendship grew.  It is funny how things work out, Mary meets John Matthew I happen to come over that night and notice John Matthew’s bracelet that was written in the Old Language make a few calls and just like that my destiny was changed.   Then I saw Zsadist, smiling as I think back to when I first saw him working out in the training room the night I accompanied Mary and John Matthew to the Brotherhood facilities.  He was amazing and intriguing, so much strength and power.   Then came that horrible 6 weeks when I was abducted by that lesser, David, a little shiver goes through my body as I think of that time.

While I was abducted and held captive, I never gave up hope that someone would rescue me.  Yes, there were times when I may have thought about giving up but only for a brief second.  I will never forget thinking I was dreaming when I heard Z’s voice speak to me and then heard him sing.  It was the most comforting thing.  I knew I would be safe and protected from anything that would come my way.  Z would protect me.

Life has not always been easy and relationships are a lot of work, but I have never regretted anything that I did with Zsadist.  Everything had to happen to make him realize that he loved me and I would love him no matter what.

Love has a healing quality.  Love healed Zsadist and mended the relationships he needed to mend.  Love helped me be a stronger person and realize that if I want something I do need to work for it.  I wanted Z to be a part of my life.  I will never and have never forgotten the way I felt when I saw Z again after coming back from down south.  He looked wonderful he was eating and getting his strength back and he looked happy.  When he wrote “I Love You” on a piece of paper every wall I ever erected after we parted gave way and I knew we will be forever. 


Bella

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