Monday:
Usually the most hated day of the week. Why is it so hated? Everyone has to get back in their work routine, which means rising early and more than likely rising your Young up for school.
It doesn't mean that Monday should be hated.
Here's a little cure for your Monday blues from your neighborhood Nursey. *winks*
Qhuinn Ghardian
*Receiving John's text that he's here working out, I jog
down to the Training Center to meet him. With what I have on my mind, it might
be better for us to talk will we lift. Something tells me this conversation may
get a little serious, and we'll need a good diversion. Entering the weight
room, I see him sitting on a bench, wiping the sweat from his face. I whistle
for his attention* Hey, Bro. Mind if I join you?
John Matthew Ghardian
*Taking a breather after my hour run
on the treadmill, I tip the bottle of water and chug it down. Shit, that felt good.
Wiping my face and chest off, I hear a whistle and look up.* ~asl~ What's
doing, Qhuinn? You up for some free weights or do you need a warm up? *
Noticing he looks a little stressed as he takes a seat next to me and picks up
one of the weights.* What's up? You look like you got something on your mind.
Is Layla and the young okay?
Qhuinn Ghardian
*I take a seat beside you, bending to lift
one of the weight balls* Layla and the young are doing okay. Layla doesn't care
much for the bed rest restriction Doc Jane put her on but after everything we
went through, she knows it's for the best. *I curl my arm, the pull on my
muscle warming. I stare down at the motion as I continue to repeat each lift.
Shifting so I can work my other arm, I notice you're still waiting and I grin*
You know me too well, true. *When you nod, I place the weight ball back on the
ground* There is something I wanted to talk with you. Things I want to say.
Need to say. *I stop, trying to find the words. I can feel the lump in my
throat. Fuck, this is why I avoid emotions and shit.* It's about being your
Ahstrux Nohtrum. Or not being it.
John Matthew Ghardian
*As he lefts the weight in a
controlled manner and switches arms I continue to sit and wait. I know my best
friend and I know not to push him. He will tell me when he's ready. Relieved by
the fact that Layla and his young are doing okay I wait for him to tell me
what's really on his mind. I lean over and grab a heavier set of weights when
he finally begins to speak again. Looking over at him as I hear a slight catch
in his voice. Placing my hand around his neck and squeezing it a few times
before either of us says any more.* ~asl~ Well, I knew this day was coming and
I...uh...I...know that it's time to talk about it.
Qhuinn Ghardian
*Fuck, why is it so hard to just say what
I'm feeling. I nod, feeling your hand squeezing the back of my neck. It helps
ground me, remind me that I'm not talking to some stranger. I'm talking to my
best friend. Someone who I consider my brother* You did? Because I didn't.
There was no way I thought I'd ever become a Brother. Shit, I was just grateful
they took me in and let me be your AN. To be accepted into the Brotherhood ...
*I can't speak, the lump in my throat stopping me. I shake my head trying to
dislodge it, picking up the hand weight.* You know how I feel, true. It was a
surprise. I didn't expect to be released. And I don't know how I feel about it.
John Matthew Ghardian
*Watching him struggle to say how he
feels pulls at me deep inside. * ~asl~ Wrathh told me recently that you ween't
going to be my AN anymore, but didn't fill me in on the rest of his plans. *
Watching as he lifts the weight without paying attention to what he's doing,
just a mindless up and down with the arm. I place my hand on his arm and stop
the movement. He stops and looks at me and as I look into his mismatched eyes I
can see the proud, strong warrior that I've always seen.* ~asl~ I always knew
you were brother material. Through your heart, your actions your loyalty and
...your love. *Not looking away as I feel my eyes burning.* I am so proud of
you Qhuinn....so damn proud.
Qhuinn Ghardian
*Tears prickle and I try pushing them down.
Damn this is hard but I need to say it* Your opinion means a lot to me, John.
Always has and always will. You've been my side from the beginning, always
fucking believing in me even when I was being an ass. It was never a duty for
me, you know. Being your AN. It was an honor. Something I wanted to do and
planned on doing for the rest of life. It was never a lie ... my life for
yours. And being released, that doesn't change it. I still hold true to that. I
will always have your back. I will always defend you. I will always want you
safe. *I clench my jaw, reining in my thoughts. I see you nodding.* This shit
with Blay, if there's one thing its taught me its to speak up. To not wait to
say the things that matter. It took me forever to tell him how I feel. I don't
want to make that same mistake again, feel me. *I drop the weight and look at
you* I may not be your AN now, but it doesn't change the fact I love you. Minus
the babysitter, nothing changes.
John Matthew Ghardian
*No fucking way can I look away as
the tears threaten to overflow as I listen. Listen and just nod. Listen to the
words that I have always felt and have always known.* ~asl~ No nothing changes!
You are and have always been my family and always will. I've never needed a
title to know that. * Turning to face him* I know that I didn't make your job
easy for you. * You shrug like it was nothing* No, me taking off without you
sometimes and putting you in a terrible position. I never meant any disrespect
to you or your life. I never wanted you to put your life on the life for me.
The things you have done for me *clearing my throat as my throat constricts* I
can never express to you how much your putting yourself on the line for me has
always meant. You have put your life on the line for everyone in this family.
If it hadn't been for you.......Fuck! I don't even want to think of what would
have happened to Wrathh or Zszadist! You are a brother through and through and
I mean that in so many ways. Your right though, this changes nothing. I love
you, just like I always have!
Qhuinn Ghardian
*I pull you into an embrace, slapping you on
the back before tightening my arms. You squeeze too and when I pull away, I
rest my hand on your shoulder* I didn't think being part of family could be
like this. I didn't know I'd find people who accepted me, flaws and all. The
least I can do is protect what's mine. *I grin* Mine. I never thought I'd say
that and not feel dread. Everything happens for a reason, true. Me and you?
We'll be tight forever. I mean it. You need me and I'm there. No questions
asked. Ever. *I let go, seeing you're feeling the same as me.* Fuck, look at
us. We're a bunch of saps. I meant every word though. No doubt. *I let out a
sigh, the knot in my throat finally easing.* I need to go get this tear filled in.
V said he's free any time I want to stop by. Can you come with?
John Matthew Ghardian
*Taking the slap on the back without
wincing* ~asl~ I know you will always be there. I won't let it be any other
way! Same goes for me bro. I know you know that! *Takes a step back and making
an attempt to lighten the conversation as I wave my hand up and down in front
of you. Letting out a long shrill whistle* ~asl~ Just look at you now. A
brother, and me just a little ole trainee. * Grinning up at you* Does this mean
I need to open "your" doors now? * We both laugh as he calls me a
fucker.* Really bro. So fucking proud! Hell yeah I am coming with you. I was
there when the put the first one on and I will be for this one too.
Qhuinn Ghardian
Good because I want you there. We're still a
team. *I stand, stretching as I look around the room* And fuck yeah, I want
some special treatment, true. Maybe you can wipe my ass next time. Cut my food
at First Meal. Make sure there's a mint on my pillow. *I grin as I duck your
swing, laughing* Too much? Wanna start with something smaller like polishing my
shitkickers and daggers? *You launch yourself at me, knocking me to the ground.
pinning me quickly. Signing quickly, you call me a douche and I shove you off*
Fine. Just keep being my best friend, true. That's all I need. *Helping you
stand, I gesture to the punching bag and you nod. Life can't get any better
than this. I have a family. I have Blay. And I have the best fucking friend a
male can have.* ~
XOXO!
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